The Journey of a Soul
"Should I?" I wondered, as I walked out of the
viewing circle and towards my soul mate. He opened his arms and I stepped into
his embrace, comforted by his presence. I knew beyond anything else that he
truly cared for me, and I could see how worried he was for me.
"How long is this mission?" Aidan asked.
"Eighty-Seven years and twelve days; Earth time, of
course,"
I said.
"Just a drop in the hat for us, love," Aidan said,
gently stroking my arms, sending a thrill of comforting feelings washing
through my body.
"I know, but I wish there was a way to take you with
me. Even when I'm looking eternity in the face eighty-seven earth years seems
like an excruciating time to be without you." Tears were filling my eyes
now but I willed them away.
"It's not what fate has permitted," Aidan said,
his blue-gray eyes shining down on me.
"It just sounds miserable," I sighed.
"You'll be back in my arms before you know it," he
said, but as the words left his mouth he was staring at the portal that was
growing brighter by the second. I knew he was afraid that I would also be lost
in the life of the new era, and the thought sent panicked gusts of oxygen
through my diaphragm. I had to change the subject.
"My favorite mission will always be 1912," I said,
and I could feel my own starry eyed expression as I stared up at him.
"Ah, mine too, love." They were hard times, but it
was a much more simple time that what you are going into now."
"It was better because we were together in that life.
Will you watch me this time?" I asked, hopefully.
"Of course; I'll watch you every second. I'm proud of
you darling. It will be hard to watch you loving someone else, while I'm on
this side loving you - wanting you - and knowing that I can't have you. It will
be hard watching you search for something that's missing knowing that thing is
me, knowing you'll never find what you're looking for. I'll watch you struggle
knowing that I can only help you a small amount from this side," Aidan
said, melting my heart.
"Thank you," I said. "The others need me,
they're lost." I added, implying that I would never leave him without very
good reason.
The light of the portal had morphed his eyes into two
glowing orbs. He smoothed my raven colored hair, and the look on his face faded
my aura.
"Sweetheart," I said, my voice sounding pitifully
weak.
"Millicent, I know you are strong; you're stronger than
even you know, and when this life is over we can rejoice once again.
"Indeed," I answered.
I walked over to the portal dread filling me, but joy
knocking on the door to my heart. Help is coming my beloved, you are not in
this alone.
I stepped through the portal and was sent spiraling into a
dark tunnel. My head, my body was squeezed tight. I couldn't move and the cold
was ascending on me. The freezing sharp sting of the cold hit my scalp first,
and that's where it stayed until it shot over my entire body engulfing me.
I screamed, as the cold set my skin into an icy fire. I was
gagging and choking as beasts of Earth shoved devices into my mouth and nose.
They poked and cut at me and the entire time I was freezing and screaming and
grieving for the love I was missing in eternity.
Through the agony I heard Molly's sweet voice.
"Her name is Millicent," she said, and as Aidan
faded from my mind I knew that my mission had begun.
